Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy

Somehow, the holidays got away from me. If I had another month, I'd be ready for Thanksgiving. A month after that Christmas and New Years. But I missed the deadline, so.... I've changed my music and have one month to prepare for Sectionals. I won't qualify for Nationals because I haven't tested in time. May I say how much I hate back three turns and mohawks? I've given myself the deadline of June for my moves test. Now all I have to do is actually turn a clean back inside three turn and keep my foot up. Who invented these things anyway? And why is it the person who just started skating last week has better three turns than I do? So, I learned the last Pre-Bronze dance... the Fiesta Tango? And it's not so bad. It naturally has a mohawk in it and when I tried it with my coach, we somehow got tangled up with one another. Several moments of laughter later, we tried it again. And it happened again. It's my fault, I'm going in the wrong direction and my poor coach is trying so hard to get around me. The joy of having a male dance coach who is nearly a foot taller than you are (he's 6'4; I'm 5'6) and much stronger is that he won't let me fall. He was a pair skater and is used to not letting the girl fall. That's sweet but I don't mind falling. It's the getting up that's hard! The Swing Dance is also coming along. I probably won't test it in time to go to Nationals, which is fine. I am on the fence as to whether I will continue with dance at all after finishing the Pre-Bronze. I had made a deal with my former coach that I would get to Bronze and decide from there. Well, I'm almost there and I still don't know. Let's see what happens with my Moves In The Field and I'll decide from there. I plan on attending Sectionals and Nationals regardless of whether I participate. I haven't seen an adult competition in a while and it would be good to be in the moment again. I have a friend who keeps telling me that I'd improve faster if I did competitions. She has a point. Sometimes there are people in your world who are not supportive. It would be best to elimiate those people from your circle, but you don't always see what they're doing. You think they are making those suggestions with your best interest in mind. Sometimes they are, sometimes they're not. It is no one's fault but my own that I did not compete for years and I lost my edge. It is difficult to get back because you remember what you were able to do not that long ago. And it hurts when you see that person who you thought was in your corner, push someone else along when you know it should have been you. The only thing to do in those situations is push harder, fight, work and prove them wrong. It's taking longer than I expected, but I have ever intention of proving people wrong. Happy New Year everyone!